see a slide spread races, depression today. the screen we need to talk about here, the stories, shadows of german colonialism. the it's been kind of how i'm the woman, but i'm not a man either. i'm not a 3rd option or anything else. i just don't have a gender for my not to for my transition with hormones and surgery and i was as completely as female advices. that hurt me a lot of the time, the subject i'm not physically, but psychologically happened is a m c. shoes is new. i take the hormones because i enjoy feeling more masculine, masculinity, but that doesn't make me a man of this month to month. yeah, the one who sits in speaker and when i look at myself in the mirror,

now that means i can finally see me because the person i've always been am, i guess you could say that now i finally exist. yeah. existence for fine. the my name is up in a spin simmons funds. my name is robin diaz. i'm $25.00, but i'm starting to become a social worker on foot. i live near frankfort and i'm trans smoothly. that means the gender i was assigned to birth is wrong with it. doesn't fit this type, i don't have, it just means just have can't use list of the nation. there's nothing there is. okay. i know that now, and it's ok that there's nothing with the kids that are past the term that fits best as a gender and buying their histories. tools. i don't know if it's in my gene is leaking. i definitely didn't choose anything else. the,

the i the set scans on this one then have a still not so much. yep. and then see what is possible for me to go to and i walk across the street and people look at me and want to categorize me as a man and i promise. and whenever i'm out in public, and i noticed that i'm seeing is a man that people address me is that some young man, it's monday about a distance. that's what people think when they look at my body type this cup a bit it's, that's what i want it and want to achieve advice and move it over to the full

mismatch all glued in savannah. i'm very happy not to be seen as a woman any more about being seen as a man isn't quite right either this or any of those people don't see that there's another option in housing, but there are more than just to generalize this. the most mentioned that i know that most people are being mean i found they just don't understand about what happens over and over and over again in the past. i find it exhausting to endure all the time. oh, so how does this my, how long is this is my hormone jumps mean, i didn't talk of like i'm putting it on my arms every day for a year now, and it's me, my voice deeper, mazda, so i understand i can grow this move optics. the

hello, my name is calvin shopping time in the w h i its yeah. basically to get some files . yep. so try it. tasha. yeah, thank you. soon. see it's been hard to hear via the car today because i'm due for a mistake to me. check up. i have everything removed in the doctor's checking to make sure everything is here. one of the hoses must be a mice and i'm, i'm crap. i understood enough because they bothered me most about my body apart from my voice, with the breasts fisting simply because i couldn't either because it was too much. and then people says that, oh my god, you must be a woman because there are presents, there are only got the most and the phones and all, but i tossed the smile. i think it was just an area that i never considered my body

cup that never belonged to me, but that was never a part of i need the tires from you and the surface to me said, i always wanted to go and cook. i believe my own body should make me feel comfortable and secure a few that i'm just as much as of the board and filler in music. as soon as i found out that there was something i could do about that this, it was very liberating. the civic some but us be, once i knew it was possible that i could do it by own like, it was clear to me that i wanted to go through with kind of this my home on the inside of my milk science submitted us all the photos of i really don't like seeing photos of me with the breasts are still clearly visible along the name. i don't like nastiness because i just see a completely different person it under because a stranger thing, you sent us on this. we don't want to present myself that way either who's present to you in the state. that's why i'm covering my face a little bit of this stuff because it just doesn't feel good. the brothers,

i had to scroll down through the middle of it to button the citizens the for us to where like having a 3rd arm or something finished, something completely wrong and my body. i couldn't touch the lesson that's consistent. when i looked down at myself when i just thought it was terrible, i really couldn't cope with it on there was something i heard from everyone. kind of stomach throwing himself there along it on the subject, the albany. robin, would you come with me? hello. hello. hello, thank you. my i'm, are you okay this way right in here? hold under via phone and take a seat here on the left. perfect. how are you? how you doing? great so far? yeah, yes. i assume your quality of life as improvement on the mission. yeah, yes, very much cover. my body feels completely different to me and i can touch it all and it feels good and it feels like me. oh, you're close to probably. yeah. yeah, totally haven't the shirt wouldn't have worked before because my shoulders are broader now and the ones who need different sized clothes planning. so i'll have to

figure out where to find something that fits managed by spending time with me. stadium. well, it looks good on you, you wear it. well. actually i'd like to see how things are looking right now. for that i would ask you to take off your chair and 5. let's estimate this meant for the coverage is the 1st time i saw my flight up her body was at the hospital for hours after surgery. i'm still p, shawn. i didn't have a mirror. let me just have the can speak is i could look down the front window. i noticed that these mountains were gone. i'm a honda civic and then i could see my belly button, but it's come to me and bolton out of the yes fi. it felt like so i'm coming home actually assess this opposite. the scars have faded quite a bit. i noticed there's a bit of stretching here. right. so yeah, probably because i'm right handed. assigned to that, so it looks like you massage this well in the meantime as i recommended to staying hell, i think the scars will get better with time. association fee can continue massaging them. but overall,

i think your upper body looks more masculine. edit suits you very well. thank you. that safety fisco is pretty tough and i think for those with this issue, the most important thing is simply to be accepted. they don't want to take away anybody else has freedom and i, they just want to be appreciated and accepted in their own freedom of god. this is some kind of frivolous process. it involves getting many expert opinions, changing your legal status, and who knows what else of each other. it's just not something you decide to do on a whim. try that. that should be well, if you need anything, come back any time to eat outside. thank you. thank you. i'm not a new person. my personality is still the same, but this shadow self is finally gone. as i skipped some color to design, there are those who say i just want attention. it sometimes is specifically about being a non binary personal identity and gauge about so when you look at how long the journey i am parked on really is been on this on what it takes to get where i am

now finished. it's just so much was only didn't choose. this is from voice been this is sophia and no, i don't want attention online semester, kind of make some kind of just name list. i didn't even go through with all these operations just to get some attention. also next on cuts the human side so applies in young time when i was between 13 and 23 was the worst of my life. even. just one of those, my old school advice and images always in middle and high school here for 5 or 6 years from 6 avalon as a dial fedloan bank. they're on the blue bench and that's where our class would hang out at lunch time. uh, but it was always an outside or in the loan, a bunch of other images up. so that brings back old emotions as a new field. i'll just

have to kind of find that. and i only have any friends because they only thought i was weird. illusion in my my classmates would often just make up words to tease me. yeah, i think i forgot to find one word, for example, was farming because i didn't shave my legs, sign well and was considered on high genex some end of the a tough on its own conflict guide me about few people made fun of me. that would be invited to a party that wasn't even have i been in for this one. so in the patio and so for an attendance will be taught to me. if you listen to you can further on you know, started when i was young. i realized i didn't fit in with the girls, and i didn't fit in with the boys. the girls just did girls stuff and i found it strange mass on the front, but i wasn't at home with the boys either. i'm already used by the office. i didn't

know where i belonged to him as if i were to tell me, i still haven't processed that yet. it's deep within me. so it's no teeth and hits me then like i used to put me in the couldn't talk to my parents like family or friends that kind of want because i didn't know how to put it into words. that was, this is mr. news was what i'm going to, i didn't fit in anywhere. he was sort of stuck in limbo and then i couldn't stand out. so i started trying to fit in with the girls because that's where i supposedly belong. i had a job, i'm trying to find me a little food was unclear, could and then look at old photos. it's always very strange mac. i think that's the best word for it. the best of what the fear via because i know that to me,

and that's part of my past. but i've lost my connection to the savannah forgotten i had good about it kept the disability and so fellow on. don't talk about myself as a girl either each and because i never was one and i never was i never will be. it's bonnie ions, it's that of me and sign. and that's why i don't use my old name anymore. important because it's just not relevant anymore. now, but of this i saw some is kind of the events of everyone else could soon understand some point in 2018. i left home and i thought to myself, hey, i don't know any people who work. we're in the mentioned to korea and i came across coast 41 and frank frequency stores and then on 1st the 1st 3 of us you sent for queer youth center, a safe place for people who work a bi, sexual, a sexual trans or non veneer and tongue, so who's been as ins gonna for me all started here, 2 and a half years ago, the youngest on the phone.

yeah, it's just as estimate here, the 1st time i was here, there was an introductory meeting. it was at that meeting that i met people who weren't clear for the 1st. i asked my yellow to calculate the confusing um once i more importantly people who are trans, some were like me, diesels, and the is my little world kind of explode and it is. and it was like, wow, i think on trans to slope. but i'm not a trans, ma'am, i'm just being 10. i started a googling and research quite a bit on the internet to see what's out there against few internet associated. so i quickly came across the term non binary series, often because of miss bean. yeah. and that word on tight, a huge, not within making, using snowden didn't have the good news, perhaps as well to answer those guns. few lines. the 1st it was a big release. not uncommon. i was afraid of the youngest. because the moment i knew this about myself, which this was, i also knew i couldn't go back and double key that wouldn't work for me just a minute. to look in this deed of men's, i had to tell my boyfriend,

delighted. i had to tell my family, well, i had to tell my friends who was this man of a medium. it was time to let the cat out of the bag, splendid and zine. most of the stuff up in the cousins i sent it said confound from chris and i have been together for 5 years now . i asked for, and i only came out to him about 2 and a half years ago, but you can go out. it's just me, my partner was trans, wasn't crestwood all madison. i showed them videos of people who are non binary of the because it was important to me that you get to know that as well. and, but this may be, this value is super interested and super supportive as well inside. and we'll see, hey, all right, well figure it out somehow. what do you need of? how can i help you? but i cries because i hadn't expected that. and then i was just like, of course it was incredible. yeah. with this was

the city moment. what was it like for you? and i told you when i told you i was try it. that's up to something very far from that list. i'm certainly allowed to absorb this. i have no idea what that meant for as and how things would change by should i accept the challenge or the challenge? i'm gonna have to say this. anything change for you between us because of in the thing, you know, just a life of it, but nothing traveling the next couple years and then not in my name is that may i ask your name, but i don't consciously think about it anymore because it's more subconscious now because it's still you saving and strange that i have a deep voice mails to my hot i just design the system again as well, cuz you're supposed to be honest. i don't even notice the attorney language in the middle of the income. i don't remember what your voice was like before closing time . i just have it in my hand type stuff. in my little image, i have a view right now as also replace the one that my memory is the on the sides. when i

think back to the time before the changes, you still look the same as you do now. if you do it by myself, because i go at christmas and because that's what my head thinks is, right? it's like, it's always been this way. the mind calling me again you back over to tech. at 1st i was confused when robin came out to me because i had no experience with the whole thing and the incumbent fire of a. but i learned all the terminology and all the things that go with its underground just as rather not to i'm hanging up just as often down like a few less and then level and what are our feelings for each other? and especially my feelings from robin were not affected, because for me the person is always in the for grant. and it depends on who knows. looks like there is more to a person than just their gender. so of course after robin came out initially i didn't question or feature because it didn't matter to me what the others talked about as a couple 100 bucks. yeah, and then so it was very clear to me that we would stay together one to decide about

as far as we can kind of thing. just go through them line up this about seats in the income for a while. i wondered whether this could even work through outside or as we'd always been hetero. yeah. social norm because this we knew that was going to change and of course, that does affect the relationship to this office. but the, you. so the question was, how do we do with a v? i think for most people, the whole trans issue is still very for this in mind, or i'm sure because it's just lots of different mac symptoms. yes, there is more acceptance. active tons about acceptance is not understanding. this is there's a different used escapes. strange people keep getting assault if it comes to the let's, let's just the other day in frankfort on the trans woman was attacked right on the street. awesome discipline, you seem discrimination like that makes me so angry. must be so. uh, but also very, very sad. told by this man, i realize other people were denying me the right to have my own identity. my own

life feed me and my lima things aren't going well politically, either off the pretty take mazda has kind of quinta, look at hungry or poland gun at a point on goal and is currently setting up l g, b t q, frequently. be chiefly, it's on line where people who work, we are not welcome using this alpha induced and a yeah. so, so what is that going to do? do you think you're not welcome here in the world just because you think you're not allowed to exist on the success to you know, if, if i this time absolutely been discriminated against but i am anyways, i mean it's pretty simple. come on them whenever i get letters, it's always a very strange feeling for me then because they always call me the wrong thing in the state. and my wife has the 12 investments and this, and i think it would be best if that were simply a minute. it's not because it's not necessary. well and when needed, i use neil pronoun, but not this new one on this. and there's a whole list of them because they let father put on, they get something on that shows the pronoun and it helped me at the spelled n i and also moved as an investor, for example,

instead of saying that he plays with his dog. and that would be in place with means don't stucco, kinda smack um on the phone. sure. net might seem complicated at 1st one, but with a little practice can you get used to it? so pushing it in one time on business and the comforts on that also can, i think getting out of your comfort zone is the least you can do to except the 1st on tying this active tip. it's sylvia if send it had it. it's just a little word means we can change so much with us. no, i'm 10 slots by sophie's and then can ma'am. we've incorporated so much english into the german language. language is always changing. i can't understand how you can be so ignorant and how you can have such a hard time with adding a few words to your vocabulary and human level. it can kind of thing even mama, dear mom, do dad, i'm writing this letter to you so that you can take, however much time you need as you read, i guess my type name cont, as such as

a few things for them, it was very afraid of coming out to my parents because i knew that they had no contact with your people at all. you had mentioned how was it the company didn't even know anyone who was guess woods and somebody should be. that's why i didn't talk to them 1st. the assessment then i decided to write them a letter because i didn't want to experience the 1st reaction, but as the as to the soonest applicant. but it's been kind of how i'm not a woman. i spend ok, but i'm also not a man lives in yet. i remain simply who i am, who i've always been to the for less than i so that i may change my appearance and when i am still the same child, you have always loved the invoice tie. it may take your time here and get in touch . when you want to know more about this is when shamia does imaged, i wish that you will accept me for who i am as to without having to justify myself to you. i love you just need boys robin hobbin to meet you, but that's in the attempt to my surprise, my parents responded very well, my mind and what type of shame 1st my mother wrote me on what that this thing is. she told me she loves me very much and thank me for the letter to dine,

coveting fees on mine. papa had it been, my dad said he didn't care because nothing had changed, childless by his emmy's infinity. it won't lose me. i said because i'm still his child and it was like, yeah, i need to end up spinning as i can when that result a lot of great boost i'm, i'm me get, i'm doing well when yours. when isn't that? from logarithm my parents didn't worry though that this might not be the right thing for me to do. but i found that they just didn't know me well. and now i can come and talk to them a lot and told them that, you know, this is right for me is like me, is just trust me. you know, this, this felt like me down and how does that mean? and then they did trust me once and now they can see that i'm doing better despite its talk soon. bye. choose the

machine, my endocrinologist today, can you check my blood work every 3 months route and gives me a new prescription for my hormones. gets up somebody, the homeowner conduct the flu. yeah. 17. okay, so um do you have a video that are recorded, edited myself, or you can see and hear the changes the hormones have made on, especially in my voice is off and the times and stimulate cree by the same kind of because name. there are no real side effects. the hormone

treatment will flush ice time. only thing i'm worried about as being dependent. i think it's been, as it's been opinion here, i'm dependent on doctor is giving me a prescription. so i can keep taking hormones. name come on, donald has been around as well are sometimes i'm worried, what would happen if that were to stop somehow that i couldn't get them anymore? assistance makes me, you must unaccustomed to come to the counter to come here and then let's mon, i remember last time you reported that you were still not quite satisfied with the effect of this hormone therapy happening in your case testosterone. that's the whole disorder and severe non editor. yeah. the dosage was lower than that. it was indeed lower of new things and i wasn't doing so well. i had some good swing. so to leave this place an order, let's talk about increasing the doses. that's possible. as long as we monitor things, this would contribute district images. for me,

it's important to note that being trans is neither a disease nor a disorder. i see it as a normal bearing and experienced by some members of our society. it's just a way of being in the world a lot of in science. thank of the 1st time climbing since going to stick to me and without the breast it's very different miss douglas comes in. i don't have to focus on how it looks or what's in the way. i can just call him without anything interfere and kitchen who is this the goods yeah. this is from an investment funding go to top. i felt very supportive when i

came out to my best friend and things changed very quickly that soon enough and looking, she asked me directly what me and program she should be using now the vision and how i define myself and nice mostly for me. yes sir. this helps, i'll tell him of this and i think it breaks the ice between us a little more fun to being one of the 1st people to find out about it was the ultimate proof that you trusted me. ok. so the promise was ups is i'm gonna didn't change anything in the friendship itself. and if anything has deepened it a bit this in. so yeah, i think so to hold on to the wi fi is reading definitely seems to be a lot happier in that piece. with each passing day, you notice more and more just how well robin is doing now, scrubbing netscape. so miss for mind. crap. uh, i've definitely come into my own disney in body and soul. yeah. but in society it's a different story. yes, i have reached my personal goal always most, but i still have to fight until this goal is valued by others. so i can be accepted

just as i am. so i can simply be a land lease even been in the system, signed the the the

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